I didn't know where else to turn without being judged :(

[Jennifer Brown]

To say the least this has been one very disappointing week. And...I can't write blogs like this anywhere else without being judged. I'm tired of acting all cheery just so I can sell a book...and then what happens to make me this way.

I have been in and out of the hospital twice in the last week. And I never go to hospitals until I am desperate. My mom had to go in this week and was admitted and released...they couldn't figure out what was wrong with her. And then I find out the best hospital in the area will be no more. ;-(

But what has really got to me is stuff with my book. I am being told no one has access to it, it's as if the publisher has put a block on it. I have a store willing to work with me seemingly on having a signing and they phoned me to tell me a block is on it. People have told me they order it and it doesn't come. I was supposed to have a review back this week, yesterday in fact, a package I paid for and where is it? Nonexistent! Nothing. My money (or I should say my boyfriend's money) is now gone, and the assholes won't return my emails. In short, do not go through Apex reviews to have a book review.

I am so tired of being promised this and that and then nothing, my emails ignored. I wish people would just flat out tell me they don't have the time for me or say I don't want to do this for you...at least my hopes are not getting up in the process and then I end up like this, depressed and wishing the world would swallow me up.